State of general uninterest

Have you ever felt that you wanted to reach the sky?

Have you felt that feeling when you're almost there, and suddenly you're pulled back to the ground?

Well, I'm there right now.

And I don't know how to react.

Especially with this mixture of emotions I'm having.

Confusion. Hate. Love. Anxiety. Fear. Joy. Sadness.

It ain't a very good feeling.

There are infinite number of solutions. Yet there is only one right way.

"wonderstruck" indeed.

Defying gravity

It's time to try

Defying gravity

I think I'll try

Defying gravity

And you can't pull me down!

Being in council, overcoming school and all that crap, is like defying gravity.

I never knew I could do it, until now.

Of course, I may have to tweak my course a bit, now that I'm JC2.

I'm terrified, but I know I must face the music.

I don't know if I have to face it alone, or face it with others.

But I'll be ready.

I vowed to give it my best shot, and darn it I will.

Sacrifices have to be made, I know.

I don't wanna leave yet, but I know I have to.

...and besides, goodbyes aren't forever, right?

I'm rather confused though, at what I'm feeling now.

I've never felt this way before.

But I know this is wrong.

I gotta get myself together.

....and in the end, I'll still be alive.

New blog, new beginnings.

Hi. I made a new blog.

I didn't wanna use my old blog anymore...somehow it just brings me back memories of when I was in Secondary School. I had way too much embarrassing posts on that blog.

Anyway. Let's not delve into that crap, shall we?

I guess I start blogging here.

--begin real post--

Yup. Orientation just ended. I dunno how to feel about this. On one hand I feel quite happy that this ordeal is over, no more proposals, no more water bomb tying, no more whatever stuff. But then again, the end of orientation means that I gotta get back to ordinary school life - listening to lectures, going through tutorials...all that stuff. Not saying that it's a bad thing, I mean, I'm kind of stressed out at the moment figuring out how to catch up on all the stuff I missed (especially chem!).

Either way, orientation has been a fun experience. Before this whole whatchamacallit happened, I was the type of person who wouldn't dare scold anyone, who wouldn't dare stand up to the crowd...who would prefer to be behind the scenes. I'm not saying I prefer to be in the forefront of everything now, I still would stick to be behind the scenes if I had the chance. It's just that this time, I learned to move out of my comfort zone (shouldn't I have accomplished this a long time ago?).

I used to be the type who wouldn't dare to be "high" in front of people I don't know. I was surprised to see myself cheering and looking silly just to get the OGMs hyped up this time...

I used to be the person who never gives out orders, and just "closes one eye" when someone doesn't abide by the rules. Judging from how much scolding I did during wet games finale, I guess I pretty much changed in this area too...but I kinda hated myself for scolding them, I didn't really wanna ruin it for the OGMs...I was kinda conflicted about this.

Of course, I've stepped on several people's toes during these past few days. Candy and Zulaiha have pretty much tolerated my typical craziness and frustration (thanks guys!), and God knows how much rules I've violated and orders disobeyed (e.g. clean-up). I've also been passive-aggressive at some people, and shown my anger at some people 'cause...well. I can't explain why. (Real story? blah. won't tell you.)

Candy and Zulaiha, thanks for tolerating my craziness. I'm sorry if I vented my frustrations at you guys... I hope I can make it up to you soon (but I dunno how!).

To the entire council, thanks for being there. At some points of time (especially today) I panicked, thinking things might blow up in my face, and I realised that there are people out there who can help me out in these kind of situations. Seriously, thanks guys.

To my Atlas 7 OGLs! You guys were awesome! Thanks for making the J1s enthu XD You guys helped orientation to be awesome! Thank you soooo much! :)

Thank you everyone. Thanks so much.

Who says I'm the ungrateful type?

Also, M&M's.